Why I’ve been unavailable for a while….
I hate being cheated on, makes me feel so stupid for not seeing through the lies. No matter what I do, it still happens. I’m done with love. I blame myself for not being aware,etc.
Now, honestly… I’m indifferent.
Love no longer appeals to me, relationships, commitments, children, marriage… no longer make me smile.
However, the thought of ME doing ME makes my cheekbones rise. I mean I JUST turned 21, so I SHOULD be thinking about myself, I SHOULD enjoy my life because it JUST started!! Or so I’m told 
Now I can either sit around sad or do something vibrant that will lift my spirits.
But for now I want to focus on me and get over the BS I just went through… Songs like this really help
FYI. Please don’t try to hit on me, it annoys me. If I want you, I’ll tell you.
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June 1st, 2010 at 11:36 pm
Awww, i’m sorry girl, i went through the same thing, i haven’t dated in a long time because of it, it also made it to where i didn’t care about all of those things anymore, makes it hard for you to trust anyone, it took awhile for me to be happy again but now it kind of feels good just to focus on myself, i hope everything gets better for you, you seem like a strong person so don’t give that person the satisfaction of letting it get you down…
June 4th, 2010 at 10:28 pm
I understand very well what u went threw i had that happen to me a couple of times, it just made me more aware and very untrusting (Hard) but when u let The Lord God led u its awesome he made me trust cause i took that hurt & anger on my relationship that i have now, but with God and my husbands patience the tables turned.. You focus on your priorities but have a personal relationship with God , he’s your first everything and he is the only one to restore you. Your young theres no rush, when your time comes for your partner God will reveal him to you its just in his timing. But give your all to him, he said in his word cast all your anxiety upon me the Lord your God because I Love You. God Bless You